a rant

I'm not having a very good day today. I'm super stressed about two tests that I have tomorrow. These tests kind of determine what my grade is going to be in these two classes. And I care a lot. I've studied so much, but I still feel like I don't know everything. My brain just can't hold anymore information. People I usually like are really annoying me. I can't solve everyone's problems. And I can't care about everyone's problems. Even though people seem to think that I can. I'm sort of having a pity party for myself. And no one else seems to care. I'm tired of being responsible. I'm tired of being the one people lean on. I just want to lean on someone else. I don't know why I'm expected to do stuff for other people.
I have to live at home next year and not do exactly what I want. And I'm not looking forward to it. I'm trying to pretend that everything will be fine. But everything won't be fine. I'm trying to be positive because I feel like everyone expects me to. But I don't want to be. It sucks. I want to move on with my life, but I feel like things keep holding me back.
I can't afford school. No one can. So I don't really take it very well when people complain to me about how they can't afford school. It's not an original complaint. You figure it out. You sacrifice. Get a job. Save your money. And you can get where you want to go. Everyone has to sacrifice. You're not the only freaking person who can't afford to get what you want right when you want it. I know it sucks. But there is nothing else I can do for you.
I don't know at whom I am angry. Myself? My friends? This stupid school? I don't know.
I just want to curl up in a ball and cry. I can't deal with all of this anymore.