stupid things

I hate when I do stupid things. I hate when I have the best intentions and then things don't work out. For example, today I woke up early. Way earlier than I needed to. So I decided I would wash my sheets. I gathered all of my sheets and blankets and such and put them in the washing machine. Twenty minutes later, I couldn't find my ipod. I found it in the washing machine. It's been sitting in a container of rice since then, but as of now it still doesn't work on its own.
It was just such a stupid thing for me to do and I kind of hate myself. I just spent more money than I would have liked on school tuition, and now I'm pretty broke. I did get a job, but it's so teeny tiny that even if I save everything I make it still won't make much of a difference. I can't afford to just buy a new ipod. I wouldn't feel like a responsible adult if I did buy one. It's just kind of an unnecessary extravagance.
I'm also so mad because I was just starting to get into a routine where I listen to certain songs before sleeping. It was really calming me down and helping me focus on God before falling asleep. I wasn't feeling so panicked about life and I was sleeping much better. Now that my ipod isn't playing I can't really do that.
I know this is all so trivial in the grand scheme of things. But it was just a simple aspect of my life that really made me happy. I love music so much. And I know everyone loves music, and it's cliched and whatever to say that. But I really do love music. It's a huge part of my life. And I'm hugely disappointed that I have to alter how I listen to music.
I'm just going to hope that after sitting in rice all night it will decide to turn back on and start playing again.