an update of sorts

I've spent most of the day in my room on my computer. There's this really great and addicting stupid game called jewelanche and I'm trying to get to level 30 (I think I'm at level 20 right now). I feel slightly pathetic for how much time I've spent on this game (it's kind of like all of those other gem games like Bejeweled and whatever). I feel like I wasted a day. I sort of did waste a day.
However, I still went to church and made dinner for my family and went for a run. Yes, I went for a run. I never thought that I would say that. Now, I wasn't running the entire time, but I still ran. I'm not a fast runner, but I still did it. And I think maybe eventually I might even like running. Gosh, who am I? I don't even know anymore.
Even though I've mostly been a lazy bum all day, I'm still proud of myself. This week has been the first week of my "Thinking about Life Differently" week. I've been super conscious about what I eat and how much exercise I do. And I lost 4 pounds this week. It's not a huge number, but I'm so proud of it. And I'm determined to keep working on being healthy. It's so satisfying to know that I'm doing things now that will help me be healthier and happier later. It's basically the smartest investment ever.
This past week I also wanted to spend more time with God. I made an effort, but wasn't completely successful. It's so hard to get that into my routine. And I hate that it is because like, hello, it's God. I should be focusing all of my life on God, not just when it fits into my schedule. I just feel really alone in my faith right now and it's hard. I was talking to my mom about this yesterday actually. I just don't have any Christian peers. I would love to be able to be a part of a young adult bible study or something, but there just isn't one at my church. And changing churches is something I don't think I can handle right now. I just feel like I'm missing out on the community aspect of faith.
In other news, I started my job working with the babies at, coincidentally, a community bible study. I was super nervous (and I still am, to be honest) but I'm mostly just an assistant so I just make sure the babies don't like fall over and I try to entertain them. It's mostly fun. I thought that this would make me want to be a mom even more than I already do. But it's definitely made me want to wait quite a while before that happens. If I have to wait another decade, I can certainly handle it. I still love babies, but I'm going to wait on that for a while. A long while.
So that's about it for now. I have one more week before classes start. I am going to get my room all clean and organized this week. I have to or I will be so disoriented all quarter. And I'm not going to spend all week on the computer. I promise.